“Eng asosiysi – SOG’LIK bo’lsa bo’ldi [The most important thing is GOOD HEALTH,]” he told me on Messanger call. “Boshqa hamma narsa topilaveradi [Everything else you can find along the way]”.
We talked for more than an hour today.
Whenever I talk to this person, I feel energized, fresh, ready to go out and take the world under my merciful control.
“My son studies abroad too,” he boasted. “Just like you.”
“Yeah, I know” I said. He goes to medical school in Moscow, just started the second year.
“He doesn’t want to come back to Uzbekistan,” he laughed talking about his son. “Even on his summer vacations. My son says that he has nothing to do here. Uzbekistan is not interesting anymore.”
He was talking about his son so proudly. You could feel it in his voice: “My son is becoming a RESPECTABLE DOCTOR.”
At this moment, thoughts popped up in my head: “If MY DAD knew that I was studying in Europe… if he was alive… would he be proud of me too?”
Maybe. Maybe not.
Maybe he would want me to continue my studies at Westminster university [in Uzbekistan campus]. Maybe he would want me to study in the Middle East or America or Asian countries like Japan.
Maybe he would NOT want me to study at all and go into SALES AND BUSINESS [where you don`t really need a degree].
I don`t know what would make him feel proud of me. And probably I will not know this, until I die, go to the Heaven, meet my dad there, ask him “Daddy, have I made you proud?”
Only then I will know the answer.
I believe that the ONLY BASIC REASON why we [sons] study hard, work hard, struggle, sweat, husle to achieve something… the only FUNDAMENTAL reason, motivation is…. to make our PARENTS PROUD.
We don`t talk about this enough, even with our parents.
Even when we hate our parents, we hate them because they`re NOT proud of us. Isn`t that true?
We hate it when they CRITICISE us.
We want them to be ALWAYS proud of us. Their approval is the most delicious REWARD for our hard work.
When I become a dad [inshaallah]… when I have my own kids… maybe I`ll not be able to give them all the fancy things that my paycheck won`t afford… but inshaallah I will make sure that my children will AWAYS be feeling that I`m proud of them [at least, just because they`re my children].